Interrogator's Journal

2018

07-16-2018

"Always assume somebody's watching"

Everybody is watching in this day and age. We have computers that easily fit in our pockets with more power than Sputnik. The average person has access to everything, any time, any where. I kinda feel obsolete. Maybe I can't hack it any more. I also realize that I am redundant. I always have been. There are specialists with greater in-depth knowledge who are able to focus their time and energy on one thing at a time. They are like lasers and I am like a shotgun. Maybe some time on light duties will be good for me. I know it already has been. I have time to think and meditate and I am trying to tame my inner Dragons.

Who knew a book by a civilan could sum up decades of training and learning? I was in the bookstore looking for other things I might have missed. I found a book on Magic Words. How to hypnotise people by talking to them. Once again, who knew? I spent hours in that bookstore.

The night of the 14th, I lost it when an Alley-Viper mentioned wanting to become a cyborg. We were speaking to Over Kill, whom I reactivated. Command isn't going to have kittens or shit bricks when they find out about that, they're going to pass the whole house and fallout shelter.

Back to the 'freak out' as my Gunners called it. I'd given them some time off so I could take care of some business in Switzerland so they had went out and brought women back to their room. I'm sure I don't need to say more than they were just wearing pants when CG 1930 called them for you to know what they were doing. I had broken open a liqour cabinet and was drinking God knows what when they got there. Any way, they took me back to their room and got the bottle from me. Those poor women didn't know what to make of any of this.

I went to sleep...

No, I passed out.

It's better than blacking out and waking up with bruises and other injuries in the hospital.

I awoke to the sounds of the women leaving. You don't need to be a light sleeper to be awoken by a loudly whispered arguement about one side 'needing to go to work' and the other side 'not wanting to wake the main dude'. I was going to go back to sleep, but then the women tried sneaking out in platform combat boots. At that point, I knew I was awake for the day, so I got up. That scared the women, who ran off.

I don't blame them as nobody wakes up from passing out looking human. Plus, I admit, I wasn't happy.

My gunners had their guilty looks on but I reassured them everything was fine. Gargoyle started cooking breakfast for us and I went to shower and make myself look presentable. By the time I had gotten out of the shower and gotten dressed, breakfast was ready and we ate.

While my Gunners were readying themselves for the day, I noticed two things in the room that shouldn't be there. Those would be the women's messenger bags. When my Gunners had gotten dressed, they noticed I was going through their bags. I was making sure that the bags hadn't been left on purpose to spy on us. Finding nothing, other than each having a laptop (which I checked) and their cellphones (which I also checked). My Gunners watched me and I could tell they were uncomfortable about what I was doing, but they knew it was necessary. I asked them if I knew where they worked and Big Shot said he did and he would take me there. Gargoyle said he had stuff to do and would stay behind.

I should have been suspicious at that.

I apologised to them when we got there and though they were nervous, they graciously accepted my apology. Feeling bad, I left my Big Shot to calm them down and looked around the shop. It was a New Age store with the usual assortment of things, but I was drawn to the Astrology section. I found something I didn't know existed: books that explained the Psychological theory of Astrology, particularly Archetypes and Symbolism. I picked out the two I thought were the best and brought them to the counter to pay. Everybody there looked more relaxed and as one of the women was rining me up, her friend told me that if I was interested, there were two tarot decks she could recommend. While conducting my investigation of their bags, I had noticed that this one was a Psychology Major at the local College and was intrigued so I asked her to show them to me. As I held the boxes and read the backs of them, I asked her why she would suggest these out of all the others. She said she had written her final on those decks for her Psychology class her Sophmore year. I asked her what grade she got and when she said an 'A', I figured that was good enough. As she added those to the books, I asked her if she still had that paper and she seemed surprised, but she said she would email me a copy. I told her I was between email addresses at the moment, but Big Shot gave her his.

I hope she does email it, as I got the feeling that it would be awkward of me to remind her in a few days if she didn't.

When we got back, I noticed there wre things missing. Namely the liqour. I also noticed that my belongings had been torn apart. Gargoyle had a cautious look on his face as behind me, Big Shot ordered me to sit down. Neither of them had even thought of that before, so i knew this was going to be bad. I won't go into details, but needless to say I am now on liqour, cigarette, and marijuana rations. I never thought I would get this bad. "Somewhere along the way you let the whole thing slide" the song goes and I have been letting things slide. *sigh*

Storm Shadow was right, I do need to freeze time while looking at the other three dimensions.

I realize that managing my time is something I need to work on. There is a term for what I believe Storm Shadow is talking about in Psychology - Mindfulness.

Mindfulness is a mental state achieved by focusing one's awareness on the present moment, while calmly acknowledging and accepting one's feelings, thoughts, and bodily sensations.

Somewhere along the way I let the whole thing slide.

I was thinking of burning this, but I think i want to keep it as a way to guage my progress. maybe I should get one of those nice leather journals like Sebastian carries around. I won't write anything secret in it, just keep track of what's going through my head.

07-17-2018

Today was a quiet day that I spent reading and thinking. It was kind of a test to see if I could spend a whole day like that and it was nice to be able to. I'm thinking about retiring my Marakov for a more modern pistol and the M16 for an AK47. I need to speak to Big Shot and Gargoyle about the pistols, but I know they use Glocks.

07-18-2018

They say there's no rest for the wicked.

I was just drifting off to sleep last night when Mamma Sefu came in. She's Sefu's wife and the only person other than Serji who has gotten me to back down when I was red-out drunk and she looked dangerously pissed off. I respect, no, I fear that woman, and had my complete attention focused on her. She says in a dangerously calm voice that matched nothing about her body language, "Put this on and start acting like the man Sefu thinks you are!" I then noticed my gunners were behind her and Gargoyle was carrying a uniform storage bag, which he fearfully thrust at me. I quickly changed into it as she glared at me and strapped on my weapons. She then said in the same dangerously calm tone with the same angry body language, "You better make a helmet that goes with it and if I hear you don't wear it when you're expecting combat until Cobra Commander designs the one he wants you to wear..." I decided I didn't want her to finish that sentence and said, "Ma'am, yes, Ma'am!" and I meant it! She stormed off with my Gunners in tow and I went to construct my new helmet. When my Gunners got back, Big Shot said apologetically, "You don't argue with her when she talks like that. Sefu told us about, you know,...". Damn, I need a drink and a joint. Maybe then I'll be able to sleep.

07-20-2018

"We wanted it to be a surprise."

That didn't end as bad as  I thought it would. I've heard of worse happening after hearing those words. The Crimson Twins spoke with me and I am definitely going out west. I have decided to leave Mamba One for a few reasons as I know she will be in good hands with Big Shot, Gargoyle, Over Kill, and Alley-Viper 301. I'll take a FANG with in case of combat.

301 seems to have made quite the impression on Over Kill so I know they will be fine watching each other's backs. Over Kill asked me if I gave him a name, what it would be. The first name that came to mind was Phoenix. He liked it and asked that I call him Nix for short.

07-21-2018

"Lose Control and Lose Everything." - General Alexander Markov

Today was my first day at this new base. I settled in and found a New Age bookstore. This place pretty much runs itself, which I am content with.

I was going to go out for the night when I saw the most beautiful helicopoter I have ever seen: A Sky Serpent ! It combines the best features of a jet and a helicopter and I must prove myself worthy to have one as it will be used to transport Cobra Commander and other important missions.

Unfortunately, Cobra Commander has chosen a Laser Viper Officer, Dr Prokhorov as his personal pilot for Sky Serpent One! This angers me to no end! I can barely write this as i am trembling with rage!

Lose Control and Lose Everything.

In Borovia , I ran the best prison system in the word while serving as an Intelligence and Pilot in its armed forces while battling my father and his minions! I realize I can manage R&D, Intelligence, be Cobra Commander's personal pilot, and work Intelligence while taking down The Coil!

Better to keep with the sad, repentant act, but I realize that to properly serve Cobra Commander that I must fight as hard for him as I did for myself in Borovia. Cobra is worth a Million Borovias!

07-21-2018 Pt 2

"Hit the first one hard enough and the rest come into the ring ducking." General Alexander Markov

I ended up actually sleeping last night! The thrill of being in the Sky Serpent was better than sex! When I woke this morning, I downloaded everything I could on it! I've been reading all day and thinking. One of the things I thought of was that I could use the Brainwave Scanner to take all the Sky Serpent knowledge from Dr. P and implant it in my own mind. It would be risky, so i will have to think more about it. I think I will try hypnosis first. I really don't care what happens to Dr. P as long as I learn all I can from him. It might be good to send a message to the rest of Cobra about what happens when people try to get me at a disadvantage. General Markov was right. I've been too soft.

As For The Coil...

"Handle your bisdness and I'll handle mine" Gyro Viper, talking to a friend by his FANG

I laughed when I heard him say that, but I realized that he had it right. It implies trust - He could have easily said, "I trust you to handle your affairs; Trust me to handle mine. I've told Cobra Commander about The Coil and those I feel I can trust. I can run this base on autopilot while I focus on learning the Sky Serpent and Dr. P. Every man has their weaknesses and I will find his. For one, he appears too friendly and trusting. He's a Laser Viper, so he's probably never been in close combat without H.E.A.T. and Aero Viper backup. He's an intellectual, and if there's one thing I know, it's what one's mind can do when it lacks focus. True focus. It seems I learn best from pain, whether physical or mental. I had regenerative tissue therapy to heal my back and throat after the Brainwave Scanner so I could get a fresh start physically. I thought I was giving myself a fresh start mentally too, but I was just piling more floors on an unstable foundation.

I must trust Cobra Commander and those he trusts to handle their 'Bisdness' while I handle mine. Focus on The Coil and learning the Sky Serpent, but focus first and foremost on fixing the foundation.

As For The State of My Head...

"I've Been in My Mind, it's Such a Fine Mind" Heart of Gold by Neil Young

I've made it past the death of General Markov and am now in the years when it was me and Grammie against the world. I seem to be hung up on  the part where I finally knocked my Father around instead of the other way around. I did it to defend Grammie and that was the almost the first time I had a 'Red Out'. I realize that she got me to back down because she didn't want me to become my Father, but that taught me to repress my anger. I'm also realizing what "Lose Control and Lose Everything" really means. There are times when it is strategic to let loose. I believe that is why I get 'Red Out' drunk if I don't watch myself. I've kept shoving stuff down and down but I can learn new and healthier ways to deal with negative emotions.

As For Astrology...

"Whoa Dude, You're a Sun Sign Scorpio With Your Moon in Aries!" Big Shot, my Right Gunner

Sun in Scorpio

Scorpios are known for their intensity. They are determined folk that absolutely throw themselves into whatever they do -- but getting them to commit to something is rarely an easy task. In fact, it's better not to even try to "get them" to do anything. Solar Scorpios absolutely have their own mind. And, their primary motivation is unlikely to be prestige (like their Capricorn friends), or even authority (Leos can have that, too)--it's real power. Their power can absolutely be of the "behind the scenes" variety, just as long as they have it.

To others, Scorpios seem to have plenty of willpower. They probably do. Scorpios do know what they want, and they won't go out and grab it at the wrong moment. They simply sit back, watch (quite expertly), and then get it only when the moment is just right. This apparent patience is simply their powerful skills at strategy at work. Scorpio isn't afraid of getting their hands (their bodies, their minds) dirty. The darker side of life intrigues them, and they're always ready to investigate.

Scorpios simply never give up. They have tremendous staying power. They're not in the slightest intimidated by anybody or anything. Confrontations are not a problem. In fact, talk to any Scorpio about their lives, and you'll probably be in awe at all they've gone through. Trauma seems to follow them wherever they go. When Scorpio learns optimism, instead of expecting the worst, they'll find that they possess amazing regenerative powers -- the power to heal, create, and transform.

Short description:

Physical energy and courage. Strong passions. Regeneration and improvement. Strong sexual powers.

Weaknesses: She is suspicious, defiant, extremist: she is sometimes vindictive.

Moon in Aries

Nothing quite happens soon enough with this position of the Moon. There is an inherent impatience with getting what they want. Life is a series of emergencies for Lunar Ariens. They live in the moment and have a hard time waiting for things to happen. Whims of the moment take absolute precedence in their lives. This is a fiery position of the moon. Even if the Sun or rising sign is more low-key, Moon in Aries people possess inner passion and fire. Emotional issues take precedence--there is simply no pussy-footing around when it comes to dealing with the feelings. And, dealing with new sentiments and needs stirs up a huge desire for activity. Moon in Aries has a need for acting out their needs, with no time to waste. It is hard for them to see the long-term, or to wait for things to happen. Instant gratification rules!

Oddly enough, this is a very defensive position of the Moon. These natives take things very personally, and they deal with problems by facing them right away so that they can then get on with other things. Their flare-ups generally end almost as quickly as they started. Lunar Ariens have an unmistakable independent streak. They put themselves right out there in the world, and make an impression in whatever they do. Their self-confidence is actually variable. Although a strong personality is projected, Moon in Aries people go through plenty of ups and downs. Their moodiness is not like Cancer or Pisces moodiness--they don't withdraw into themselves or escape the world when they're down. Instead, they are temperamental. Some might say that people with Moon in Aries actually enjoy trouble and confrontations. Indeed, this position is easily bored with environments that are too peaceful. Their homes--especially their childhood homes--are often battlegrounds. They rule the roost, or at least want to, and are not the most peaceful of folk to live with!

Moon in Aries people are prone to have plenty of crushes and other short-lived yet intense desires. "Needs" and "wants" are indistinguishable to Lunar Ariens at any given time. In their minds, what they want is so powerful that it becomes an absolute need. In young adulthood, they can be dangerous with a credit card. Whoever offered the advice to freeze your credit card in a container of water, and then let the block of ice thaw before using the card, unwittingly had people with Moon in Aries in mind. The whole idea was to see if the shopping whim of the moment would pass by the time the card was ready to use. Still, with this scenario, I wouldn't be surprised to see Moon in Aries hacking away at the ice. That is, if Aries actually takes the advice in the first place!

Others will appreciate that people with Moon in Aries rarely sulk or play any drawn-out games of manipulation. You can pretty much know what they want at any given time. They are generally ruled by their own emotional needs, and they're not always as concerned about others' needs during these "emergencies". Somehow, they have people around them scrambling to help them solve their problems. There's an aura of childlike innocence around Lunar Ariens, even when they're getting their way again, that can be charming indeed!

(OOC NOTE: http://astro.cafeastrology.com/natal.php?index=37597639 is where the astrology stuff comes from)

Of all the gunners I have had, these are the two I am closest with. I will train them until they are full Gyro-Vipers and then get them into Sky Serpent training. Once I get my Sky Serpent, I will no longer need Gunners, but Co-Pilots would be nice and the cockpit should accomodate the three of us. I'll figure something out.

07-22-2018

"Scorpio

I Transform

'Put your ear down close to your soul and listen hard.' - Anne Sexton

Acknowledging desire and surrendering yourself to the depths will serve you best at this time"

From the Black Moon Astrology Cards Guidebook by Susan Sheppard

I spent yesterday going over the Sky Serpent data. I sent Command a request for a simulator for the Sky Serpent and hope they respond soon. I've decided to take the weekend off and take a more active role in the base. I put my name on the roster to handle the top VIPs that come through. I'm not going to schlep around just anybody. I haven't heard anything from Command since I spoke with the Crimson Twins, but I look forward to my next communication with my superiors. I need to expand my musical horizons and will do some research when it's slow at work and I have all the business taken care of. I bought company clothes and will wear those while on duty. I'm going to go to Kremwerk next weekend because I'm not looking for a serious relationship and in this day and age 'One Night Stands' and 'Hookups' are a thing. I am being careful because of all the diseases in this modern day.

Some people yearn for a return to simpler times. They haven't been through what I've been through. My Grampy was a just man, and I believe he had my best interests at heart when he was shaping me to become the man he wanted me to be. I find myself wondering what things would've been like had he lived until I had grown. I've done that a lot in my life and now I accept the fact that his death was what it was and I am who I am and, as humans are not static beings, I can improve.

As I write this in the early mornng hours, I lay in bed and realize that Native people the world over have Rites of Passage

My first successful defiance of my Father was mine.  

I am ready to move past it.

07-22-2018, Night

((OOC NOTE: This entry starts with a drawing of a Sky Serpent above the Siberian forest with a Siberian Tiger prowling below.. It's not professional looking, just what a person with a decently high Dexterity and Agility could do.))

I guess that picture is tonight's quote. It was another quiet day spent studying and then I went up in the Mamba away from the city. I met a Decepticon who transforms into a Helicopter who was friendly. I took him back to the Helipads and we spoke. His name is Vortex and he introduced himself as an Interrogator. He said he'd let me look at his mechanical make up because I promised I wouldn't mess with anything. Unfortunately, I got a call from one of the Silicon Valley VIPs wanting the best pilot to take him and some important clients up. We're meeting for drinks at Kremwerk, which I hear is a good LGBT club. Maybe I'll make it my Hunting Grounds.

I need to find Dr P. tomorrow and see if he'll take me up in his Sky Serpent again. I also want to spend as much time with him as possible.

I drew a randon card from the Black Moon Astrology Card deck. It was The Black Moon Lilith card. Dark, vengeful  Feminine mystery, the kind that inspires the phrase "Hell Hath no Fury Like a Woman Scorned". I chuckle as I write this, but if I really believed in such things, I'd be worried about what Natalia might be up to! I've never seen a woman so pissed off as she was when she broke up with me!

07-23-2018

""Oh, they don't have a Soul like a Vincent '52."

I see Angels on Ariels in leather and chrome,

Swoopin' down from Heaven to carry me home." From the song 1952 Vincent Black Lightning by Richard Thompson

Today they dropped off my Sky Serpent! I spent the rest of the night getting her set up so I will be able to fly tomorrow morning before work! I don't have any clients until after 3 PST. It seems the VIPs like the before dinner, after dinner, and night flights. That's probably because they're so busy during the day. I get as close as I legally can to the ground when I fly at night so they can see the city in better detail. So far I haven't gotten any warnings for flying low, but I'll be careful.

The day didn't start off well though - the civilan computer system of Abroc Helicopters crashed! Payton and Vortex both visited me and that was nice.

Anyways, I'm going to take her out.

07-29-2018

"If you could do it all over again, knowing what you know now, would the question you ask be why, or would it instead be how?"

Quote from the Warhammer 40,000 Inquistition RPG book that caught my eye.

I haven't written in almost and week. I wish I could say it was all work and getting myself straight, but it wasn't. I've been enjoying being free. I was thinking today about how things have been since I gave up my secret identity. People believe me when I tell them that Dr Alexander Johan Hamilton was my father and they leave it alone at that. If they get more curious, then I give them a penetrating stare and vague answers. Few people recognise me so that is good. I think my current afternoon work schedule works best for me, as I get the most flight time and can still go out at night. I need to go back to working on myself, but this has been a nice break. I realize how much of my life I wasted and am even more thankful to Cobra and Cobra Commander for giving me my youth back. This is a good time to be alive!

07-30-2018

"The Sins of the Father are Passed Onto the Son"

Gorky found me at Starbucks and confronted me, whom he thought was my son, about a Father Superior of the Russian Orthodox Church named Nastoyatel Iosif Ivanov. I remember him as being a calming influence on his fellow prisoners who had an annoying tendency to want better food and treatment for them. If they wanted better food and treatment, they wouldn't have broken the law. Gorky wanted to know what happened to him and where the Father's remains were so he could have them. WHen I told him my 'Father" didn't have any records from Borovia and that any such left in that country were destroyed, he asked where my "Father" was. When I told him Moscow, he attacked me. I fled, but not before he kicked the table at me and I sustained some broken ribs. I fled, but he said he wasn't through with me. he seemed very intent on vengeance for the old friend of the family. I've started to wear body armor, needless to say. Payton (Alley-Viper 301) and Over Kill visited me and we talked. Things are going well with them and I agreed to help with the attack on Langely as sky support. It will be good to feel Peklabog in action!

07-31-2018

"Those who forget the past are doomed to repeat it" George Santayana

My ribs were bothering me but I smoked a joint before I took my tours for the evening up and felt okay. I didn't go out at night and stayed home before work to come to terms with The Fall of Borovia. I do not regret leaving my family behind because they chose not to follow the evacuation plan and prized material goods abover their own lives. I've had slight feeling of regret about it occasionally, but I realize that was stupid. They made their (death?)beds and are lying in them. I never received confirmation of their deaths, but I believe it is a safe assumption. I realized most of my issues with leaving Borovia dealt with leaving my first love and wife, Melina. It was an utter betrayal and one of the hugest disappointments of my life. I thought she was better than the rest of my family, but she too didn't follow the evacuation plan and prized material goods above me. It was personal with her because she chose the goods over me, and I thought she was my soul mate. I also know that is why I went along with suppressing my sexuality with women for so long. Men weren't even on my radar like that until recently. I repressed a lot about my self during those years in Borovia, more than I thought I did. I also repressed more about Russia than I thought I did, but that's the next stage to get through - my time as Serji's aide in the KGB.

08-05-2018

It's been a while since I've written, but I've been busy with the Langley attack (it went really well!) and working through more of my issues. I came to terms with the fall of Borovia and the harsh treatment of the KGB in permanently removing my finger prints, foot prints, and body hair. I am currently going over why I refused to shoot a SIberian Tiger despite an order to do so. I've come to the conclusion that I made the right decision because otherwise I would not have put myself on the path to becoming a member of Cobra and meeting Cobra Commander, whom it is my extreme pleasure to serve under! He is my hero and I hope to one day prove to him again that I can live up to my full potential.

On a personal note, last night at Krewerk, I met Azrael. He is named after the Angel of Destruction and Renewal. It turns out he is a personal fashion consultant so we agreed to an exchange of services: He helped me shop for clothes and afterwards I took his boyfrind and him up in Peklabog. They were the age I look and claim to be (early 30's) so we ended up making an afternoon of it since we spent the morning shopping. I treated them to lunch at a charming bistro they frequent before we went up. It was a pleasant day and my ribs feel much better.

08-10-2018

"It's not paranoia if they're really out to get you" Unknown

I realize the officer I served under in Cuba saw enemies everywhere because he was a small, weak, insecure man. So was the African warlord I served under. They were always worried about the wrong things and saw everyone as an enemy. That is a sad, lonely way to live.

Earlier today, major Bludd asked me to retrieve him and take him to Washington DC. We spoke and I'm thrilled that he's back. We both are trying to lighten out loads of all the emotional baggage we're carrying, and I know it's not a contest but he seems to have it together more than I do.

Mentally, now I'm on my time at Cobra. I see my time between fleeing Africa and joining Cobra as a good time in my life, despite still being not welcome in Russia due to the superior officer I disobeyed still being alive and more powerful than Serji. It was a good respite and allowed me to study Americans in greater detail. There's nothing like living amongst people to really learn the culture. It was America where I learned to appreciate my gifts and training, as well as being brought up in a first-world country because of watching how Sefu struggled with and was amazed by things I took for granted. As for Cobra, I believe that will be easy to get through and then I will be able to return to full duty.

08-12-2018

"We travel, some of us forever, to seek other states, other lives, other souls" Anais Nin

This morning I drew the Ninth House card. The Ninth House is concerned with fate and karma as well as the need to unite with something greater, as in religion. All of these things represent Cobra to me. I believe that it was my destiny to join Cobra and it is my karmic reward for perserving in the face of advesity, whether that adversity came from outside influences or my own choices. As for religion, I view Cobra Commander as my spirit guide and religious leader. I did betray him once, but I have come to realize it was due to my own faults, not his. I think he realized how tightly wound I was and offered me the chance to live by sending me to the Brainwave Scanner where a lesser man would have killed me.

On the matter of the Brainwave Scanner, I believe that while I hate the machine, it does serve a useful purpose. I do care about our planet's resources and preserving them and there is no resource more valuable that the right people. I use to think it was all people, but now I realize that people rise to where they should be in life, where they've earned the right to be. Take the CIA prisoners I have been interrogating since I brought Major Bludd here. They deserve to have their minds plundered. They knew what would happen if they were captured and chose to fight rather than flee, and now they are ours to do with what we will.

It feels good to be back interrogating and I didn't realize how much I miss it. Interrogation is also spiritual to me.

08-17-2018

As I look back on my time at Cobra I realize somewhere along the way I began neglecting the MD part of my trade and have started to restudy the information. and update it. I hope Cobra Commander doesn't realize what I've done.

We successfully took Quantico and drove the Marines there back to Paris Island, which will be our next target. After that it will be NORAD. Froom the reports I've heard, Alley-Viper 301 did well and, though G.I. Joe was there, we managed to make them retreat. WHile I am fine, AV 301 and Over Kill were injured.

I saw Cobra Commander this past Monday and he wants me to stay ti interrogate prisoners. Our Commander looked a little rough when I saw a little under his hood. I saw the bottom parts of a scraggly white beard and pasty white skin. I'm worried about him.

08-24-2018

It's been a week since I've written and I've been busy. I've been interrogating prisoners and helping to plan for the attack on Norfolk Naval Base. If we take that, we'll have complete control over the whole East Coast of the US. I issued orders to be more selective in the prisoners we take and the troops seem happy they will be able to use live ammo instead of rubber bullets. I also came up with an idea on how to take care of the prisoners we already have and will need Typhoid's help. We haven't heard anything from Dr. Mindbender, which is good, though I wonder what he has been up to. I will try not to go so long without writing but it is what it is.

2019

08-27-2019

Yesterday I felt confident enough to show what I've been working on with the Quintesson cloaking technology to my Comrades. Crimson Guard 820 was there and will be able to give the Crimson Twins the news that I have not been wasting time and resources. I've been so busy that I've let details escape me. I knew that the Joes had taken back America and am saddened by the fact that I did not have the new technology ready iin time. I thought we were stretched too thin but I trusted Cobra Commander. I hate to admit it, but G.I. Joe is a worthy foe. I am also upset that we lost such valuable territory with all of its impressive resources. I have spoken with Victor Kirstov and he assures me things are fine in Moscow. Victor hinted that I might find a warmer reception there the next time I go there, so from a personal point of view I gained from the near-conquest of America. I intend to begin writing more regularly again now that I don't have to work so frantically.

There is still the matter of the Red Right Hand and the Coil. In what "free time" I could manage, I've been trying to find an "in" to the Red Right Hand and have been subtly dropping hints that my Viper indentity is dissatisfied with the current Cobra leadership. It's been trying living a double life, but my Grandfather trained me to be a secret operative since birth and I have added to his considerable teachings. There have been many times I have thanked him for sharing his wisdom and experience with me. I've been getting more involved with the Coil as myself and have a feeling of a few more members. No one as significant as Overlord, Doctor Mindbender, Hannibal, and Zandar, but the more I know the better off I am.

Crimson Guard 820 needs the numbers so I better make sure all the "i"s are dotted and "t"s are crossed as the Americans say. I got to go as my Viper persona and hunt for the wolves amongst the cats.

08-28-2019

I couldn't sleep last night because I was thinking about what Hannibal said - namely that he was willing to serve as a figurehead for the Coil if the need arose but he was a commander of leigons, not a leader in Cobra Commander's style. This has led me to wondering whom is Doctor Mindbender grooming to take Cobra Commander's place? It worries me that Hannibal, and especially Mindbender, think there is somebody out there more qualified that themselves.I've also been thinking that it doesn't seem like Doc M to share anything with anybody, especially control of Cobra. A patient once told me about a video game where you were sent on a quest to find the Answer to the Question of Life and Death. The answer was "There are no Answers, Only More Questions." I feel this is the same with this mission. Since I'm awake, I'll go trolling for members of those two secret organizations in my Viper disguise. I may write more later if I find anything of note.

08-28-2019 20 to Midnight

(Two drawings appear at the top of the page - one of Serpentor and one of Serpentra)

I've been thinking about those two all day and realized I wasn't getting any work done with the cloaking device or engines so I left after a few hours saying I had other business to attend to. Gargoyle was listening to Johnny Cash and I was intrigued. I felt an instant connection to his music and we started talking about the American Old West. I must admit I learned a lot from him about that time period and he offered to tell me more  and bring some of his Western movies to our movie night. When he and Big Shot left for their lessons, I flew to Nashville and bought an new outfit. For the rest of the day, I hung around in the recreation area looking for potential members of the two organizations I am to gain intel on and think I may have suspects.

09-01-2019

I hate to admit it, but I like American Western movies. I found myself relating to the Gunslingers and enjoyed my conversations with Big Shot and Gargoyle. They explained the difference between Gunslingers and cowbows was that the Dreadnoks were cowboys and I was a Gunslinger. Being as it's Labor Day weekend, and Big Shot and Gargoyle don't have class Monday, tonight before we went to sleep, they asked me if they could take a small helicopter to California to see their families. After I reviewed what they had already learned in flight school, and that they helped with the evacuation from America, I'm letting them take my medical helicopter. They laughed when I pulled out priest disguises for them, but said they would wear them so my disguise as Father Damien wasn't blown. I'll have to add their priest names to the door. I'm proud of how they've progressed in my absence and they've matured in other ways as well. They both have steady girlfriends whom I have yet to meet but intend to do so. They also asked me about saving money and investing in stock and bonds. Currently, I have to sound system on and am listening to Johnny Cash while reading an interesting book they picked up for me, in fact, they picked up several they thought I might be interested in on what is called 'New Age' topics. The one I am currently reading is on the Akashic Records, which are records of all Human events, words, emotions, intents, etc that have, are, and will happen. It is said to exist on the Etheric Plane. Big Shot claims to have been there, but as he began the sentance with "The first time I tried that super good KGB weed..." I obviously don't belive him. Some of the other books seem pseudo sciencey, but considering that Aliens and Alien technology were thought to be bull crap, and I've seen and fought against aliens, I find myself unwilling to rule anything out. I'm also now woking with their technology. Perhaps it's time to have a serious conversation with Crystal Ball about some of these topics and possibly even collaberate on a few projects in our spare time. As I have precious little spare time at the moment, I'll let it simmer in the back of my mind.

09-24-2019

Witwicky almost got the planet destroyed! Luckily I defused the situation but I was furious! I had been drinking and that didn't help, but still, making it soud like he spoke for the entire planet! Bah! It was a good thing I was typing or the chat room would have been filled with Russian anad Bovorian curses. Later, Typhoid summoned me to her office because I wrote a report on what happened and she was furious with me for flying drunk. I shouldn't have done that but it was really important. I should have had Big Shot and Gargoyle fly me but I hate being a passenger. I also wanted to see if the new engines and improvements to the cloaking device would work. I didn't need to use it but it would've came in handy if I did. Typhoid sent me to Trucial Abysm to meet with my new contact, Deathsaurus, and see what I can learn from him.

2020

10-14-2020

I haven't had time for much due to perfecting the cloaking technology, but it is now ready to be used in combat. In what little free time I've had, I've been delving into theories on psychic powers and using what I already know about the Human mind and body to see if it is feasible for people to possess such things. I have aquired what are termed 'New Age' books and have also been studying all such information I've been able to hypnotise out of KGB members under my Viper guise. I must admit I had to seduce a few and do a few things I am not proud of, but I know they were heavily into such things before Russia became a democracy. I have also been going over the files we stole from America when we were in control of that. I also know the Nazis were into the occult and such things, but I can't bear the the thought of using the gentler methods of persuasion I used on my ex-KGB allies with Nazis or Neo-Nazis. It is possible I can stroke Dr. Mindbender's ego enough to find out what he knows or possibly find ex-Nazis or Neo-Nazis here in Cobra that could help with my research. I think the second option would be better because the full range of my skills should be VERY effective on them.

With the Space Program training beginning today, I attended the first class. All Hell broke loose, but Dark Matter, the instructor, praised me and is allowing me to proceed with more training. I have new appreciation for the Lampreys, indeed all of our Navy, and their extensive training. I was extremely impressed by Bloody Bones. He has balls the size of watermelons, as Big Shot would say.

Speaking of Big Shot and Gargoyle, their training is going well. They are sharing quarters I acquired for them so they have their own space to study. They have really grown since they became my gunners and I will always be there for them, well, as much as my crazy schedule permits. It feels good to have trained such fine pilots and maybe this weekend I will try to meet up with them. I think after tonight, I can take a weekend vaction. I do want to spend as much time in the Stellar Spanner Flight Simulator as possible. I haven't forgotten about that DAMN DR PROKHOROV and how he tried to replace me. Such an action will not go unpunished. I am sure by now he has forgotten about me, but I remember him...

Speaking of remembering things, I need to spend more time training in the AxEMU suit. I'm sure the Techno-Vipers did the best they could, considering how little time I gave them, but I'll give them more time and that should improve its quality. I also have to remember to bring weapons that will function underwater if we are to have any more such training in that environment. I'll ask Bloody Bones or Crash Dive for their help. I know I can contribute more as a pilot and using my technical skills than anything else, but tonight has shown me how woefully unprepared I am. Hopefully more traininng classes and time in the Stellar Spanner will shore up these weaknesses.

10-15-2020

One of my New Age friends sent me this. My additions are in ().

Do not let anyone tell you the next few months won't be crazy.

Two full Moons in October (The Harvest Moon was on 10-01-2020 and the Hunter Moon will be on my birthday, which is also Halloween.).

An Eclipse in November.

An Eclipse in December.

And we close the year with a Full Moon December 29, 2020. ( Which is called the Cold Moon)

This is wildcard energy.

I think that's interesting because Cobra is heading into space and I take it as a good sign personally that there is a Full Moon, especially one called the Hunter Moon, on my birthday because I am hunting The Coil and The Red Hand. I see it as a good sign that I will make progress with those goals.

Training in the Stellar Spanner Flight SImulator went well and was VERY interesting. I'm doing better than I felt I would about deciding to become a Cobranaut because I have long harbored a dislike of planes, especially jets, but feel more comfortable with them from flying Peklabog, my Sky Serpent. Only Cobra could produce such a fine machine. I've been pushing myself very hard lately and might take a break the rest of the day. I'll see if I can get time in the Stellar Spanner tomorrow for another half day and then take the weekend off.

It's night, and the moon is a razor thin sliver, barely visible. I feel the rumble of the aircraft moving around my helipad as I recline in Peklabog's cockpit. I stare into space and wonder what my Grandparents would have thought about me one day being up there. I know they'd be proud of me. I will be going where few Earthlings have and as I stare at the stars, I wonder what we will find out there and how much this will allow Cobra to spread its influence. It was exciting enough being part of Cobra as we try to bring the world under our banner, but now there is a whole solar system. i can't wait to explore, even though I know it will be dangerous. I think of all those brave Cosmonauts who have gone before me and smile. It sure is beautiful out here.

10-16-2020

I trained some more in the Stellar Spanner and am going over Peklabog meticulously. I plan on making her maiden flight on Tuesday and want to be sure she's ready. I told Big Shot and Gargoyle and plan on taking them with me as a reward for their years of service. They kept saying 'Uranus' under their breaths and giggling, even after I told them we were not going that far. I think Mars and back should be sufficient, with a close up look at the Moon. I'll have to use the AxEMU suit I used for the training exercise, as my new one isn't ready. It will be by Tuesday though.

10-19-2020

Big SHot and Gargoyle proposed to their girlfriends when I was at the quarters Saturday! I knew they'd been seeing these women since right before I went deep into R&D to work on projects, but I didn't knnow it was that serious! They took me aside and asked my permission, which I thought was touching, so I gave it. They asked me to be their Best Man, but I reminded them what my schedule was like and how hard it would be for me to make the solid commitment such an important responsibility required. I thought the women were a good match for those two and excused myself early so they could celebrate 'Properly'. I did leave them a message after I left that if they wanted me to pay for the wedding and honeymoon, I would. They are appreciative and messaged me back they would take me up on that offer.

Sunday I was so content with life that I stayed in my quarters and listened to mu, read, and took a soak in the tub. It felt good to have a whole day to myself.

Later today I went to Los Angeles because Azrael from Seattle said his cousin went to a new bookstore there that focused on Metaphysics and that Metaphysics was too technical for him. I asked him what the difference was between New Age and Metaphysics and he said that it combined magic, which Metaphysicists called Psychic Powers, and Science. This was what I was looking for to help me with my secret pet project, which I have decided to name Awakened Mind! I bought some books and the most promising one is titled The Science of Psychic Powers. It is written by a Psychiatrist and Electroconvulsive Specialist. The other four books I bought came highly recommended by a woman, named Casile Zlan, also browsing that section who said she'd studied Metaphysics her whole life,and her parents before her. We chatted for most of the morning and then exchanged contact information, with me giving her my civilian information. She had to go, and I decided to go to a coffee shop.

That was a HUGE mistake!

First,a woman whom I assessed as a threat entered because I pegged her as SPecial Forces of some kind! Then Lady Jaye, and then General Hawk! GENERAL HAWK!

I didn't handle the situation as well as I should and I need to brush up on my Intelligence skills. I almost gave myself away! I don't think any of them Made me and was able to leave, but not before Lady Jaye made a comment about me needing to go to the Back Room. I thought she meant like we mean it in the KGB and Cobra, but from her companion's followup comment, now that I go over the event in my head, she meant the bathroom. I'm so releived!

Later that night, I gathered the courage to try to make it to the Moon. I made it as high as seeing the SOlar Serpent and then lost my nerve and so did Over Kill, who had came with. I hurried back to Cobra Island and am now parked at the launchpad.

I'm trying to study The Science of Psychic Powers but I can't concentrate because I keep finding myself staring at the sky. I was up there higher than I'd EVER BEEN.

I hope I don't get scared tomorrow, not in front of everybody.

Like my Grandfather said repeatedly, "Lose Control and You Lose Everything."

I miss my Grandparents, who were better parents to me than my biological ones!

I better get to sleep, tomorrow will be busy and today was something else...

10-28-2020

It's been a while since I last wrote, but so much has happened! After scoutiing the Moon, I went back to space and studied the abandoned ship that was flashing the red light! It's magnificent!

Drawing of the abandoned Scorpion shaped ship in Earth's orbit*

My initial scans are being processed now, as are the secondary from a closer position. I was able to find out from the Cybertronians that it was VERY dangerous because there were mechanical aliens who lived on it that ate anything but especially loved metal. I am trying to get a group together to explore it because there is INFORMATION on it, possibly FORBIDDEN INFORMATION!

Last night's trip to space didn't go as I had hoped. Captain Bloody Bones and his crew were able to come, but Zarana also showed up. SHe looked like she'd been in one hell of a fight and had a bloody meat cleaver and brass knuckles. I couldn't leave her wandering around the Launchpad like that, the people who work there are too valuable, so I took her with. We didn't make it to Mars, we barely made it to the Moon.

I was able to show Bones though, and will send him copies of the data I gathered. Today I spent some time in the Stellar Spanner and will request that Bloody Bones and his crew be given more time in it. If I achieve my goal of Cobra taking over the Scorpion ship, I want to rename it the MARKOV SERPENT! We'll see what happens but I believe that ship is the future of Cobra.

2021

03-11-2021

I actually have time to write here. I was able to get data from the Scorpion Ship and have been working with it for the glory of Cobra. I met a Cybertronian by the name of Ar-Gent SIlverfinger. His organization, Evil Inc has timeshares on Mars and sells Vodka made there. In my guise as Alexander, I pitched the idea of him hiring Big Shot and Gargoyle to grow marijuana there. He was definitely interested. I have let all the appropriate people know that I am trying to reach Cobra Commander for a meeting. Things have been quiet around here and I have met with Sefu about Dr. Mindbender, The Coil, and The Red Hand.

07-05-2021

Cobra Commander has given Captain Bloody Bones and I orders to explore the Scorpion Ship again, and I also want to go through the Warp Gate and explore Cybertron. Since I last wrote, I've been mostly working on figuring out how to get psychic powers. I believe it is done by manipulating the brain's electrical impulses and have been focusing on that. Cobra already has the technology to produce Artificial Intelligence, as shown by Over Kill, so I will delve more into that. That will also give me a way to "cover" what I am really trying to accomplish.

I spoke with Goth and he told me about Transorganics, which are the species of the spider-like creatures on the Scorpion Ship. He also is willing to teach me the current Cybertronian language, as well as Ancient Cybertronian. I downloaded a copy of the schematics of Ra's brain and put them in my personal Laboratory, where I also have copies of the documents on psychic research from when we took over America and from the KGB.

07-06-2021

Do what you can where you are with what you have

quote by Theodore Roosevelt

Give me six hours to chop down a tree and I will spend the first four sharpening my axe

quote by Abraham Lincoln

I can't go back to yesterday because I was a different person then

quote by Lewis Carroll

For my part, I know nothing with ant certainty, but the sight of stars makes me dream

quote by Vincent Van Gogh

Big Shot and Gargoyle gave me this book and were grinning when they did, so I guess it was a joke. It's called Quotable Quotes and still had the price sticker on it, which was $4.99. What they were doing in a bookstore is beyond me, but they wander to strange places when they get bored. I sat in my recliner and flipped through it and these were the ones that caught my eye as I did so. I told the Techno-Vipers to build a containment field that would hold one of the Transorganic spiders and was mounted on a small, fast vehicle. I also am having a weapons expert make me a combination tranquilizer/EMP launcher that I hope will incapacitate one of them long enough to get it contained. I am going to start outfitting Peklabog for that mission and the exploration of Cybertron later. I am hoping I do not get too badly injured during the first planned mission because I look forward to meeting with Goth and sharing our knowledge. We can learn a lot from each other.

07-07-2021

It's after 01:00 and I know my destiny!

I will elevate COBRA COMMANDER to Godhood, which is HIS destiny!

Every time I failed HIM and squandered what he gave me, it has lead to this! HE has doled out the tools I need to do such over the years, I am just now realizing why!

Now I understand how my father felt about the Catholic God, but COBRA COMMANDER will eclipse him and all deities that people have believed in, and the ones they still do. HE is destined not only to rule Earth but the Universe!

I have shown Doctor Lazarus my research as her knowledge of Cybernetics will be a great boon to COBRA COMMANDER'S ascent to HIS rightful place.

I will sleep now, I believe I can. I will need to be rested for this. Great is COBRA COMMANDER, who has lead me to my destiny that will fulfill HIS!

07-15-2021

We met Goth and entered the Scorpion Ship. There were Cybertronians there and they were on a mission. I did not see an Autobot or Decepticon badge on either of them, but they had their own agenda. We didn't get past the Docking Bay because one of the Cybertronians linked into the Ship and it awoke. A horde of the Mecannibals but they just watched. We managed to separate one from the group and capture it. We managed to get off the ship without suffering any casualties.

Unfortunately, tempers and emotions were high and we all said and did things we regretted later. This happened on the 13th. On the 14th, apologies were made because everyone was calming down or had already done so. I got drunk and high, which I regret because it didn't end well. Big Shot and Gargoyle ended up having to force me into a tub of ice at gunpoint to get me rational because the Techno-Vipers in R&D wanted their XO to be sane. I napped and feel a little better, but will feel like crap after I fully sober.

I made up with Goth and we can move forward. Ghost also is willing to work with us, as is Vizier. I believe Incognito is too. According to them there is the Tyrest Pact which prohibits Cybertronians from giving technology to primitive beings. I aim to show them Cobra Operatives are evolved enough that they can trade technology and information with us. I have decided to put off my first visit to Cybertron until I take Ghost's advice and speak with Spike Witwichy to make the proper arrangements, as Cybertron is not set up for fully organic beings. Tomorrow will be a day of contemplation, study, and drinking and eating extra healthy.

07-18-2021

Baroness and I spoke. She reminded me I was XO of R&D and to "Grow a spine or be replaced". I am currently in Cobra Unity assessing it for Baron Ironblood's resurfacing. Baroness and him have co-command of CU so it will be a good place to become active. Alexander Markov and Viper 2932, my other identities, I've been using to investigate The Coil and The Red Hand. I did so with the little free time I have had, usually when I had a mental roadblock or had to wait for something involving the work with the Quintesson tech and other off world tech we've been able to gather. Baroness said I couldn't visit Cybertron until I had a more solid plan. So far Witwichy has not been in contact, but I can wait. The good thing about Crown City is it's 2352 miles to Amsterdam.

Today's card is Yod - Destiny

I am a fool. I was wandering around Crown City as Alexander Markov and realized brainwaves were what would evolve Cobra. I came back to the Palace and found a quiet corner and am reading a book on Neurofeedback to refamiliarize myself with it. I remember I've been part of such research in the past, but I can't recall details. Maybe a fresh look would be better anyway. "I can't go back to yesterday because I was a different person then" Scientific fields also evolve.

10-09-2021

I've been slacking lately, or at least I feel I have. I've only been reporting to R&D as much as needed to keep up with things there, but Typhoid has everything in order. I've been going over the information we stole from America on Neuroscience, looking for anything that would help with my personal project. I've also been studying what information I can get on Ra's brain. I've mostly been in Cobra Unity where I don't have to worry about Dr. Mindbender...at least as much as I do on Cobra Island.

12-29-2021

I was pondering my own mortality and the projects I have yet to complete and it lead to the thought of what would happen if we all started aging again, and worse, what if we advanced to our chronological ages? The thought mortified me and then I looked up and saw my potential solution! I was looking at NAM, the Mechcannibal! The Cybertronians have lived for millions of years! How long has Nam lived? I remembered something I had read somewhere - The perfect revenge against your enemies is outliving them. Think of what I could accomplish! I have the Mechcannibal, Dr Lazarus put a Human brain in a robot to create a cyborg, and I've been deeply researching biofeedback and brainwaves and their possibility of enhancing the brain and body. I also have Cybertronian friends and I can pick their memories and knowledge. I need to speak with Dr Lazarus to be sure I don't replicate the mistakes Cobra made with Ra. That wasn't pretty, poor guy. I can't imagine the Hell he was in, and I tried to help him. What a time to be alive...and hopefully stay alive for many, many years! I better speak with Cobra Commander about this, and be sure those who work against us, both openingly and within our own ranks, do not discover these ideas.

2022

11-27-2022 to 11-28-2022

I'm exhausted. I decided it was time to present my findings to Cobra Commander and went to the Crown City Palace Command Room to start put the finishing touches on the report. I was about to radio for Zarana when she walked in, and she hasn't changed. She did allow me to take the Dark Jem technology and the Cybertronian technology she had too after making sure she would receive fair credit. Copperhhead was using the security feeds to hunt for a HEAT Viper who lost a bet. I need to find out how much money it was for and the state of Vice in Cobra in general. Sefu just laughed when I asked him, so I assume the Security Vipers have it under control.

Cobra Commander issued orders to see what the Whitwicky's were doing without the Autobots on the northwestern Canadian coast, so Copperhead, StratoViper 2100, and I went. Having been in my own world, surrounded by people I have trained or who come from a scientific or security background, I made an assumption that shows I shouldn't have been leading any missions. I thought Copperhead would wait, but he sprung into action, startling me for the second time today. I was ready to kill him, but instead decided to follow his lead.

Because of Copperhead, we were able to capture Buster Whitwicky and almost got Spike and the man they were meeting too.

I was able to slip a bug in Sheppard's pocket before we fled with our prize, and SV 2100 was still on the scene with others who were also cloaked to follow and observe. One Autobot did show up, Jetfire. He hit Peklabog, which I was controlling with my helmet. I should wait for those who were to retrieve him to return, but I have so much to do, and like I said, I need sleep.

I had an idea on the way back here: Horrorshow NO! GORKY IS HIS NAME! Horrorshow is dead! Can back this up, and look like a fool when things are revealed. He thinks I'm the son of Dr Alexander Johan Hamilton, while I really am him. I've also established that identity within the ranks here as a Medi-Viper in training and my "Father's" errand boy who doesn't like him. What if I use that identity to free Buster and return him to Spike? Give them the whole "Seen the Light" song and dance and see if they'll take me in because "Father" is a "Very Important Man" in Cobra and he'll kill me or send assassins. My real father did that, so I know how that goes. Not only would I have access to the Autobots, I'd have access to GI Joe.

Something to run by Cobra Commander. After sleep.

12-11-2022

I released Buster after he told me what he knew a few days ago. It wasn't much, but I did place him where he could speak with Mu-NAM. Ah, Mu-NAM. Now there was the gold in that mining operation. I found out his real name and he offered to let me into the Chaos' computers. When I told him the ship had left, he offered to enter into negotiations for its route and destination. I told Scorpion Team to increase the subliminal show and let more slip about what happens to those who piss off Cobra Commander. I'll try to stop in for an hour or so a day to personally speak with him.

Today I let the rest of Command know that Ascension Project exists and am upgrading the BATs due to the events on IRC. Once again, Alien forces threaten our planet, and once again the Cybertronians are witholding information! Maat is hiding behind Ambassador, Tyrest Accord, Borders! Still, I drew out they know whose ship the Chaos is and that its been watching us for 20 years!

And it was such a relaxing day up until then too. I did get to see Over Kill and let friends know I was active again. Tomorrow is another day.

12-19-2022

I've been going over the tech Zarana captured and it's just what I need! Unfortunately, I sent some Vipers to scout Starlight Mansion, and some of the dumb ones found out whatever is there is prepared for an assault and doesn't want to be disturbed. As for Maat, I met her on Cybertron and she is willing to help, but she's not in a good position to join what I'm calling the Anti-Tyrest Accord League. She's talking about visiting Earth through official channels, but I forgot it is Christmas season so I don't expect to hear from anyone before January. I will do what I can until then. I said Cybertronians can visit Cobra Unity as long as they give some warning first and behave themselves. I don't know the Dreadnok stance on Christmas but I'm going to try to meet with Zarana and see what I can get out of her. As I've been going over what Zarana gave me, I've been going over the reports on NAM and especially how he interacted with Buster. The Associated Press didn't present me in the most flattering light, but they don't know the whole story and I'm too busy to corner a reporter and give them my side. At some point I should record something for Cobra TV, but again, I'm busy. Big Shot and Gargoyle and their fiancée are trying to figure out a date for their wedding. They want to have it on Big Shot's favorite beach so I don't have to pay for location, just catering and the open bar - both alcohol and weed. The dress code is Surfer Formal, which means the whole wedding party was clothed for less than a million. But, as they explained, what I saved on location and formal wear, I'm going to spend on catering and the bars and transportation. I can get Viper Guards and Security Vipers in training to handle that. They only want family and close friends so it looks like less than 1k people. My wedding was a zoo. I don't know what it would cost in today's money, but my fucking father was Treasurer of Borovia and convinced the government that it would be great propaganda, knowing I would hate all the attention and bullshit! He's dead. They're all dead and that's over. I must stay in the present and look to the future. I've faced the past. I had to to get as far with the Ascension Project as I have. I told Buster the price of freedom was accepting responsibility for one's actions and that was a hard-learned lesson for me.

12-21-2022 12:01 Am

Today I met with Zarana and tried to get more information out of her and level with her. I tried some of the Dreadnok hard grape soda and it actually tastes good. I didn't fully get through to her, but she knows she'll be rewarded and given credit for what she brings me and that will have to be good enough. Later, I joined a heist to gain funds for whatever Lady V is working on for the Commander. The damn drill kept breaking and Zarana banging on it got it working when I failed. Captain Bones and his crew did an excellent job. I went in civvies and nobody seemed to recognize me, which is good. I should look like I'm 70, and it would be a hard 70 I'm sure. As it is, I look early to mid 30's. Also, the identifying scars are gone, and my voice is different since I had my voice box repaired, so even if captured, they'd have no proof I was the High Warden of Borovia. Besides, the world has worse to worry about. Indeed, I have worse to worry about. After I returned from the heist, I went to Cybertron to meet with Goth and Deathsaurus to give them information. Des said the Destrons would help Earth if asked formally, and Goth said he'd look over what I gave him. Des has a son, Solon, who is organic and can pass for human so I offered to take him for a few days and let him meet human women. Solon has cybernetics and I'm interested. Des said there's a price to pay for them and I asked him for more information so me and mine can make 'knowledgeable and informed descisions' about getting them. I told them about the evil AI, but didn't give a specific location, just Earth. I told them about the virus and said I wouldn't ask them to come until there was a cure or vaccine. Due to Des' understandable reluctance to advance human technology too far, I'm going to see what Dr Lazarus can offer in the way of cybernetics. I did give her some information last time and I'm sure she's been doing her own research and experimentation. She was fucked over by Mindbender on Ra so she has as much reason to see him eliminated as I do, so i feel I can trust her. I better leave some undercover Security Vipers with her and see that there's good, uniformed, Viper Guards too. If there's an emergency and I need cybernetics, it'll be her doing the surgery. I better just officially take her on my Ascension Team. Maybe she can help with NAM. Fuck, I should have thought of that before now! Also, we need better drugs. I've been told of an operative named Dr Feelgood and I need to speak with him and research his background. He might be brought on the team as well. I don't really expect to hear from the EDF, Spike, or the Joes until after the New Year, and the holiday season increased border security are a difficulty. Damn terrorists. With the situation in Ukraine, I don't want to bother Baroness, but it will be necessary after the first. She has royal obligations that must be fulfilled. As for the new Destro, I'm not too sure about him. His father was a good man, I miss James. He knew how to get things done and we understood each other.

Ah, everything is well! The Commander has spoken and issued orders! He is alive and seems better! I could not ask for a better Christmas present!

He wants me to keep on with what I'm doing and he wants to meet! No more drinking until after we do! He has suggestions!

Black Moon Astrology card drawn: Twelth House - Escape.

2023

01-10-2023

I'm in love with Veritas Prime, and Soundwave. I see much of myself in both of them. Veritas and I successfully synced, which neither of us knew was possible. She knows a lot about AIs and was instrumental in defeating Singularity during her attack on Earth. That started when I was going over some data and noticed the Sun was showing signs of an eruption that would fry electronics and cause world wide black outs and communication problems. Bones was able to form an alliance with Esmeral of the Destrons and her Conjunx, Deathsaurus. A new Cobra Operative showed himself, codenamed Hotwire. Unfortunately, he seems to be a disciple of Mindbender. He does have stellar credentials and built the MECH he used in the battle /in his spare time/. If I wasn't watching the Wing and worried about my Love, I would've laughed approvingly. Bones led the Cobra Earth Defenses and I led the Space. The AW did well, and so did Bones and his crew. NAM was able to give me useful information, even though he went absolutely gibbering crazy panicked when I told him about the Sun's impending eruption. How Veritas managed to carry our comms to the point she did was amazing! She was also able to contain Silica somehow, somewhere. Though she is no longer broadcasting, problems from the Virus remain - namely that it seems that the Starlight Girls seem to be going through the signs of withdraw from heavy alcohol and/or drug use.. As for Bastian, he shot me 3 times, though I was unarmed when I went to the Mansion the day of Ver's attack on Silica. I had my helmet off, and he could've shot me in the head. I knew he was in there and that he could beat the Imposter, as I call his dark self. I did tell Bastian about the Cure I had ready, that I will not use because my best in Ascension Project, hell, I barely survived that! Then again, I did discover it by accident...And we are in uncharted territory...At least by Humans.

Today, though, or rather yesterday, things exploded. Ver and I had tried syncing again, and I noticed a Shadow. I probed the Shadow, and found it was what was making her exhausted all the time! I was going to attack and sever it, but there wasn't enough bandwidth. And then I fucked up and hurt my Love. I tried to probe deeper. And failed. So I tried again. And that's when it hurt her and she withdrew. I told her what I had found and she went to sleep. That was on 01-07-2023. Today though, things exploded, like I said. Thank God Starlock was there! Soundwave will be okay, he's learned it's okay to feel and break away from the past. And Veritas, my Love, learned we would not abandon her. I learned that I love Soundwave too. And Starlock can be trusted.

After my attempt to sync with Ver on the 7th, I put out a general inquiry on Broadband and both Lady Jaye and Starlock had responded. From what Jaye revealed, the Joes are maintaining at least, and she did not seem affected by the Silica Virus. Starlock did say there was a Cybertronian Sleeping Virus and that was the shadow I had seen in Ver. I gave them basic info and Starlock said she's teach me and AW about Cybertronian medicine in exchange for lessons in Human medicine and I accepted her offer. Spike and her have been doing the same info exchange. I still haven't heard back from the EDF, but that LJ showed is promising. I thought I had made an entry before now, which is why my thoughts are scattered. Choirboy just pinged me and knows I'm awake and active and he's projecting....oh my. Going back to sleep....

01-15-2023

Soundwave has succumbed to the Sleeping Sickness, but it looks Like Starlock made a breakthrough and the Autobots are on it. General Hawk came to Starlight Mansion and was willing to listen. He arrived in his Kodiak and the Commander's orders be damned, making a good impression on Hawk was worth more than that damn things schematics so nobody scanned it. Today AW had a meeting, and we came to the conclusion that when we break from Cobra, the best we can offer is to keep our mouths shut. We'll give up our pay checks and pensions and insurance and keep the equipment we currently have. As for a base, logistics has been combing through abandoned TerrorDomes and WW II bases and cities. So far, we're looking at Russia seriously, as there are many abandoned towns and bases. Kasatka is especially promising. We're also looking into space on Vilnacron, as they might like having a fighter wing for when something nasty comes again.

02-03-2023

There was an accounting today, and it did not go the way I expected. Storm Shadow gets his orders and reports directly to Cobra Commander, so Mindbender just scrambles his head when Tommy steps out of line. And if Cobra Commander trusts Storm Shadow, he controls him. Maybe I built up Mindbender too much in my head, but that's his function. Keep everybody in line through fear. I sent Storm Shadow back with a message for the Commander, so if he agrees to keep Mindbender out of Ascension Wing's business, we can relax. Storm Shadow seems to think I'm getting too wrapped up in Cybertronian culture, but I don't think he understands the full implication of everything I told him. I don't think anybody understands the implications of what I'm doing outside of Ascension Wing. I'll need to see what Storm Shadow reveals on his next visit and what Cobra Commander says, but for now, I have to wait for the scouts to come back.

I finally went to Borovia and retrieved my final orders. I knew the blast doors to the Dictator's office were shut and the mechanics broken so they would need to be broke down. I also knew there was a biological agent trap so I brough Over Kill. Before I could explain that there was a corrosive trap, because the Dictator loved acid, he kicked down the door. Soviet Era blast door. Like it was nothing. Anyway, the trap didn't trigger and flood the room so I carefully went in and got the bottle and got the orders out of it. I left everything else because there was the mummified body of High Guard Zren and it was not a peaceful death, multiple poisons never are. But the weird thing is, the orders say, 'Glad you and Herr Professor worked things out. Report to *coordinates*'. Puzzling, because he knew my father and I hated each other and he's the only one I knew who went by 'The Professor'. Also, the coordinates are to a place in Northern Guatemala. Equally puzzling because if we couldn't get to Russia, I'd always been told we were supposed to go south to Northern Africa.

I suppose I should write something official to Cobra about recent events but I want to see what's going on first. I'll see when the Destrons are leaving the solar system and if Vilnacron team has any word about a meeting there. I also have a way to communicate with the EDC, but not officially. Blaster, the Autobot who installed the tech, didn't want to be there and have anything to do with Cobra. Still, if anything goes wrong or anything weird happens, we can communicate.

04-29-2023

I've been busy. After my last entry, Veri and I met with Cobra Commander at the Silent Castle. Let me explain...

Veritas had gone to Australia to Dream and was attacked by a Cybertronian. I had no way to get there quickly and she was unresponsive so I asked for help on the General Cobra comms. Mindbender answered and said he had people he could send. Mindbender then went dark and I told Soundwave. After almost getting Cobra destroyed, Mindbender radioed me to come to his Austalian Lab. He had put Veritas into a Synthoid body. He also had a clone he made of me named Leska. She's a woman but I still changed all my DNA required security. She's quite the fighter, but so was Veritas, who is going by Veri now. She was able to break free and attack Mindbender to the point he gave us the Matrix and we left. Soundwave wanted to destroy the town, but I convinced him not to.

Fortune Wheel and the Mad Arab and a small team is tracking Mindbender. Choirboy is still directing operations in Siberia and instead of rotating people on Citadel Watch back to Vilnacron, he asks them to help train the Ukranian soldiers how to make weapons out of what the Russians abandon or they have lying around. Mostly EMPS and such, but AW is very creative and are trained scavengers and repurposers so I'm sure the Russians are having many WTF moments.

But back to Cobra Commander. He's upset about the resources I took, but I'm giving him knowledge and even released all the AW training manuals except the ones on Psionics Training. No way is Cobra getting those. I met Deadline, who is Lifeline from the Alternate Reality where the Joes are Cobra in all but name. Walker/Scalpel has taken him under his wing, no pun intended. Baroness said she wanted Ebony to join Cobra and I thought she'd be happy I had Eddie, as Deadline likes to be called, and a line on the other SG-Joes, but she wasn't. Baroness told me Ebony insulted her and has plans for this planet that don't include Cobra. There was also a commercial plane that mysteriously vanished near England, but I can't look into everything and Sefu is working on better sensors for the Vilnacron Base so we know more of what's happening and don't have to go to the Solar Serpent and risk a repeat of that debacle with Duke.

Lifeline and Concealer helped stabilize Veri's Synthoid body and I'm in the Wind because Gargoyle is a genius and made me realize that there was nothing of importance in my Grandmother's apartment when she died because she'd already sent it to me when she kept and preserved my record collection. That's also why she kept buying me records - she'd unseal them, insert sheets of microfilm and add subliminal tracks then reseal them. I've been going through them all week and got up to the Fall of Borovia processed and catalogued. I gave Gargoyle a copy when I gave him the marijuana seeds from Jamaica when I stopped in San Fran so Storm Shadow could get his stuff out of Peklabog, which was a cover for giving him a USB drive of what will appear to be 'Pre-Communist Chinese Operas' but has subtracks to help counter and repair the damage done by the Brainwave Scanner. I have circumstantial evidence he was put in it last weekend or that Monday. He's still able to socialize with Concealer and Scarlett and whomever, but he doesn't seem to be that big of an afthole. We had a pleasant conversation Friday and he's going to a convention with Concealer and Kamakura Monday. I told AW to stay away so they can hopefully have a 'Civvie Day'

Soundwave needs to talk to me and Veri is wary because I continue to speak with Megatron. Damn it! If I don't give Megatron something so he thinks I'm helping him every now and then, he'll come to Earth. And that would Bleep up everything. Things are shaky enough as is. But Soundwave and Veri have a point so I might need to wake NAM and see what we can do. Megatron does want him and he knows more than he's letting on. I need to see if Vilnacron Base has been through what we got from NAM and Buster interacting and learn what has been gleaned from the leads they decided to pursue. No, AW Members who were born before Cobra Disbanded aren't up to date with the latest fads and have deep pop culture knowledge, but we all chose to pursue Higher Knowledge rather than the drivel most Humans do.

Those who were born after the Disbanding, whom Earth call Millennials, were trained from birth and had the advantage of proper nutrition and physical, mental, and emotional healthcare. As well as education based on a global perspective and problem solving skills.

Cobra is difficult. Baroness is running things day to day and has no interest in Off World tech and knowledge. Cobra Commander did ask her to restructure Cobra and make it more efficient. Sefu has ideas but I don't know if she'll listen to him, as he was only Viper Guard CO. He's also not going to meet her alone or in Cobra held territory. We all agree to that. Sebastian is still having problems and he exchanged Promise Rings with Kimber. He wants to be free of Cobra but he wants to protect Kimber and the rest of the Starlight Girls. Which is another mess as Mossaud Operatives were part of a mob that attacked Starlight Mansion because Cobra was involved with Silica. I sent a cloaked FANG to track them with a cloaked MAMBA as backup and supply and need to check in with them. Major Bludd shot the leader of the Operatives in the back and the Alley-Viper I'd sent to aid Sebastian was too slow to block the bullet. I couldn't be there in person, but Big Shot did handle it and took care of clean up afterward.

The LA Government still doesn't like that the virus still has a hold on him and others but we've done all we can do. I'm sure the story is the same the world over, except in those countries where nobody looks too hard when people disappear and nobody investigates too deeply when people who act 'suspicious' turn up dead.

I still don't like it that there was Autobot Technology found both by Zarana and myself on two different occasions during this whole thing. Also, there's the matter of Bludd's watch and how dodgy he gets when I bring up the tech. Still, Silica is contained in Veri's Cybertronian body. Those things need to be investigated too.

And then there's Kreiger. His name is on some of the paperwork that was microfilmed. He was a Nazi before he was KGB. So, we have my possibly German Father who doesn't seem to exist in Borovia until a few months before Operation Barbarossa kicks off when he becomes Borovia's High Treasurer and my Russian Mother. Who is the daughter of two Russian Death's Head SS Nazi Hunters whose squad got medals from Stalin for 100 kills. I got the damned picture of it too. And the medals. Before she was Anne Markov, My Grandmother was Codenamed Breeze.

There's also the interesting prisoners Baroness had Storm Shadow capture. One Ekaterina Vysotskaya, AKA Katrina Vesotsky and one Austrian named Lee Gruber who Baroness knew displayed Mental and Physical Powers. I have tissue samples and what brain scans I could get with the equipment on Peklabog, and Sefu sent down restraints strong enough to hold a BAAT or Minicon and modified to give a warning jolt and then tranquilize the prisoner if they use more of or different areas of their brains than normal humans. I'm running all that now. I have to keep the temperature in Peklabog at 50 F or less, not only to help the computers, but also so Pyatno and Polosa are comfortable. I didn't trust anyone in Moscow to drive me so I asked an old friend to borrow two of his Siberian Huskies and a small wheeled sled. He asked for 1k USD and gave me a pair past their breeding age but still serviceable and spayed and neutered. I also made sure all his huskies were really huskies as a thank you and as a bribe not to turn me in. He does love his dogs and served as a trainer until '91 when he took the retirement option.

Moscow was not Moscow. There were Cold War Era vibes and no stray dogs or homeless. The pastry shop that had been in operation since Moscow was founded was closed and while the outside looked fine and there was no mail, there was dust inside and it looks like they just closed for the daily deep cleaning and never reopened. The neighborhood with the bunker the Kirstovs run also has all the defenses up it can without causing panic in normal people, but no people were moving about. It was 3 pm local time and no people, no cars, no bicycles. Nothing but hidden cameras that I remembered, and ones I did not. There's also been upgrades made, nothing that registered as Off World though. I wasn't walking in there unannounced as that place is designed for defense and I just wanted a look to see if it's worth risking entry. Victor Kirstov was the commander of my Grandfather and Grandmother's unit though and him and Serji did give my Grandmother records for me and Natalia did send me the letter alerting me to all this... Still, it's too The Lady or The Tiger - esque for me and Commie Jesus (as Pip jokes) knows I gave her reason to hate me.

Concealer. I don't know what to make of her. I know she's male to female trans and Commie God bless her, she tries. But her prattle and bouncing all over worries me. She did go toe to toe with Cesspool and got one of his Septic Tanks, so she's capable, but now she's in with Storm Shadow, who she calls 'Uncle Tommy' and who's gone out of his way to protect her and then she's friends with Sebastian too. That's dangerous girl. You're a Joe who when I first met you on IRC said you were IT at a College Campus and big into My Little Pony in an unironic way. And that was back in December? Well, I remember worrying about you when I discovered the Sun was going to release those Solar Flares that could've ended life as we knew it. Goddammit. Well played, young one. I'll be asking you some questions next we speak. It's April, sweetie and 5 months from consultant to named Joe is a bit short unless you got family, skills, or abilities I don't know about. Or whose levels I don't know. Ugh, I'm getting sloppy!!!

Well, I'm pissed at myself and Pyatno and Polosa are awake so I'll hook them up and go for a run. The estimated completion times for things say I got an hour and a half so I'll go down to the docks and see if I can get a look at the Shadowhunter. Maybe the Captain will be about.

06-20-2023

Genetics. Whether Human or Cybertronian, it's all leading back to genetics. I tried focusing on evolving my mind since Cobra occupied America, and while myself and Ascension Wing made progress, it cost.

I thought Cobra was behind, but it's not. I had a chat with Inquisitor and it comes down to genetics again. Cobra wants the Arashikage because of 30+ generations of skills and knowledge that Inquisitor says most people think are a myth. No, dearest, they do not. I look on Extensive River's site at the books and see those who have realized and can back with science and technology what was once called Old Wives' Tales and Magic. She spoke of genetic memory, as does Veri, and that is why the Commander lets me run free. He's gambling that when the time comes, he can recall me and mine. Or capture and set Mindbender on us.

So I'm chasing genetics and the next stage of the Human Mind and Body. Still. It's what they wanted in Borovia, it's what the KGB wanted back before 1991, and it's what Cobra and Kreiger and Iron Klaw are after now. Everybody has pieces and I see the whole, but I lack manpower and equipment and time.

Natalia, Dear, was I your last hope for Russia? What do you and yours think of everything now? When I go to see you, what will you and Victor say when I tell you where Breeze hid the history of the Interrogator Project that she could? I owe you and your Family, even as I curse you all. None of you knew I'd throw that shot. Did any of you think I'd survive this long? Through the years as others in the Project suicided or snapped or had to be put down, I remained. At what cost, though?

I see promise in a Joe, two in fact, but do not know if they'll survive what this Quest for better Minds and Bodies will put them and the rest of Humanity through. I should've just accepted the Commander's decision for me to forget about The Coil and made amends with Mindbender so I could be more involved with the Commander's Project and kept a better eye on Mindbender, but I withdrew and focused elsewhere. I didn't want anything to do with making monsters or the Brainwave Scanner, and delved into machines and technology. I tried to help Ra and those that came after him, and I see him going for full AI again. He told me what to do this time: Keep him busy and engaged with Humans. Let him learn by observing. Walker/Scalpel has been working with BATs off of the BATnet, but him and Leska are both budding psychopaths, if not there already. Leska wants a normalish life, but as she mentioned, how far back were our ancestors Projects?

Now where do I go? I have Veritas who is a Decepticon with the Autobot Matrix of Leadership who Mindbender forced into a Synthoid body, Veri. She was able to sync with me as Veritas, so Cybertronian and Human Minds are able to merge and separate. There's Soundwave who can hear anything. It's Data and ElectroMagnetic Fields with them, and Humans have ElectroMagnetic Fields as well that control our minds and bodies. Both species generate and are affected by them. The difference is Metal and Organic. Then we have the Quintessons who are Trans-Organic and a mixture of both.

Now I look at Greathawk, from another universe, an alternate reality and see some of what was done to her before, and what Kreiger did when she was his prisoner for a year, all so she could kill Cybertronians. She suffered on the Altar of Human Survival too, and her Universe did not survive. Wisp was there too, for a shorter time, and her DNA was combined with a cat's. Cobra also captured two of Kreiger's Projects and one shows the ability to affect dreams, while the other is insanely strong. They are earlier versions of what was done to Greathawk and Wisp, I ran and compared the methods of genetic tampering myself. The Interrogator Project was, as far as I know, attempting to boost the Body and Mind with drugs and sound and light with those chosen having been done so by physical and mental characteristics of their parents and grandparents. Some may have went back further, but that is all I have of me to go by. All other records, if any, are with Kreiger and if Iron Klaw holds his leash, then him ultimately.

Ah, Kreiger and Iron Klaw and the Dire Wraiths. Aliens have taken over Russia and can look like us. Now they're trying to create hybrids of their race and Humans. The Joes had detectors and Lifeline said had fought them before. Maybe while acquiring Duke's armor and General Hawk's Kodiak? It's a bargaining chip to use if caught, see if they'll let me go find this Nebulous and explore. The Choir will go, if necessary. The Wildcards, if they're caught too, I want to stay on Earth to watch things. I'd hate to see them trapped by Cobra or whoever or whatever, but in some areas and some battlefields, they'd be better than the Choir.

It seems all I can do is further explore genetics and what the Human mind is really capable of, and try to figure out how to unlock genetic memory. And Veri/Veritas/Ghost must remain free as well. She's coming at the same issues from the Cybertronian perspective. Her race is at once more advanced, yet more behind in certain fields. Unfortunately, her race could easily annihilate ours, were more of them to get together, and Liege Maximo is coming to annihilate or enslave them. He'll bring members or spies of the Galactic Council and the Black Block Consortium too, whether he knows it or not, if they're not here and watching already... I know I'd be.

I'm still curious about what Sheppard handed to Skyfire, and the whole Lost Colony Records and Planetary Keys situation. I don't see any reports from the rest of Cobra on it, and I haven't the time or ability to pursue it myself as it has been months and the trail cold. I'll have to hope Humanity don't get screwed too badly by the Autobots again.

As for Ascension Wing staying free and finding their place in the world and universe as a whole, I'll have to leave that to Sefu and Big Shot. Keep the Wing funded and keep gathering information and goodwill. Get a supply network for us and be ready.

Maybe it would be better to go back to Cobra, but things are too uncertain there and I'm done being a lackey. If Inquisitor is right, and there is more to Cobra, I'd want to be in on that. What cost though? What sacrifices would I have to make? Inquisitor is right, if I was useless, I'd be dead. Still they let me fly and investigate. So there's that... For however long I have it.

There's Kreiger and Iron Klaw in Russia with the Dire Wraiths

There's Veri/Veritas/Ghost and Cybertron

There's the Arashikage who have been at something for 30+ generations, and more than Inquisitor knows. I'll bet on that.

There's me and Ascension Wing

There's Cobra...

06-24-2023

Walker wants a normal relationship with Leska and is trying. He asked me if there were family dinners he'd be expected to attend or anything. I told him the only known family member I had was my Grandmother, and she passed away. I still don't know my relationship with Leska on that level. Inquisitor was created to replace me and I accept that. The thing is which me was Inquisitor meant to replace? Cobra's take on Interrogator Project? It does not matter, in the end. Leska, don't look to me as a Father, not the traditional, storybook one. I got to fly. I got to be out there learning and innovating, because too many sit and stagnate and recommit the sins of their Fathers and Mothers.

Let Walker and Leska be.

Today I met Pile-Up on Vilnacron, and we have a deal. Whether he'll bring other Junkions or not, I'll see. The Junkions need what we throw in scrapyards because we are not able to bust it down and recycle. They have a civilization to build anew too. The look in his optics when he struggled to speak plainly hurt me so deep. What he and his must have seen and done all those years to survive. I haven't the words for it, but it shook me like seeing the Citadel in Russia.

Megatron also came and decided to check out Vilnacron. He had no answers either. Omen tried to get through to him when I couldn't. So I prepare for the worst.

Veri/Veritas, my Love, you of Water and Air, will have to lead those who see Death in the "survival" Cyclonus and Ultra Magnus would offer. Those who would over-regulate and not adapt. You must lead the ones who are fluid and see beyond enough to survive, adapt, and rebuild. Not only your species, but mine. I'm looking at Cobra Commander's "survival" plan and the American's and Earth's and shake my head sadly. Because we are barely surviving now. How long has Earth been like this? Love, I am not the one to lead beside you. Sefu is, if I must choose for the Humans. My fate is that of Megatron's. To be mindwiped, if not killed on some battlefield. Both are the same, Love, you know this. Just like there are many battlefields.

Ringtone, your missing child, calls, and cannot be found. In some state between life and death. It upsets you, and you say you have only been a host for two years. I do not know what to say or do. I found the article and linked you to it, Love. You cannot pilot your old body. Omen can. Soundwave can, but he sleeps so much. I will work on getting him to where he can stay awake, and that will help.

Education systems? Ah, the old ways were the best, they recognized everyone has different strengths and weaknesses. The one Sefu and the Wing came up with combines the ways of the old with the knowledge and technology of the new. Deathsaurus and Esmeral are looking for a school for Solon and I might be able to get a ship if I say yes. Sefu and I talked. Choirboy, Pip, Big Shot, and Gargoyle spoke too. None of us could look those two in the optics and say "Solon will be safe and get to visit Earth often" just to get a ship. Because then none of us could look ourselves in the mirror, let alone look at others and have them look at us. And we're damn well not telling Cobra Commander or Mindbender or anybody else and see what they try to get and what ends up happening to the poor kid.

I have Earth to look after, and I'm trying.

10-15-2023

Ah, has it been this long since I wrote? My heart was broken and now restored. Veritas Prime is back in her correct body and while I will miss her as Veri, I knew the time would come.

Ringtone is also back and I am so glad to have heard from him on IRC. Too long some have been gone and there's still one moving around I know of.

Unfortunately, we found another lab. This one is in Australia and there is a being called Serpent-OR who was in a tank that was labeled Organic Robot. It was that being that killed Veri, thankfully Starlock and others were able to transfer her back to her Cybertronian body. Still, first Russia and now this, not to mention Mindbender's lab in Australia. Cobra Commander has mentioned Mindbender and Concurrance and Over Kill said the EDC supports NATO in a way that made it sound like they're leaving the rest of us to twist in the wind. I didn't see any EDC or any crafts that couldn't be identified so where was everyone? I've heard rumors of organizations with Advanced Armor like Cobra's SNAKE suits and yet when the war trumpet sounded, who forsook the water and answered?

Pieces. I told Inquisitor in her disguise about what I had and she said to go after Greathawk with some BATs to get a sample of her armor. I'm not doing that because I cross that line and no way is she ever going to see me as anything other than just another enemy. There's enough in Cobra who will do so and I'll leave it to them.

We had a Cobra Meeting and Mindbender and the Crimson Twins weren't there, and neither was Young Destro, who it turns out likes taking some Iron Grenadiers and going out fighting. Poor James must be rolling over in his grave at that. Mindbender is too unstable, the Commander said, and he wants the Twins in the field more. He also reassigned people and I'm in Off World Intelligence now, under Baroness, and Major Bludd is day to day CO.

Russia is still hanging on and there was mention of the Wing in the news as LA seems to like us there and trust us. Unfortunately, and so far this is only in the gossip mags, Russia's leaders were replaced with Pod People. If the truth gets out, goodbye Russia. Tomas broke free with his Kin so there is hope. I wish them well and hope they stay free.

Greathawk tore me up when we went one on one in combat when Cobra was trying to get the Heavy Water. We ended up retreating and Pip burned the boosters to get us back to Cobra Island and there was a medical team waiting. I'll need different tactics for Kreiger and Iron Klaw if it comes to it, because 'fair' ain't gonna cut it.

Give it a few days and see what happens, I can't fly in this condition anyway and I have to make a decision on which path to walk as far as the samples I have and what options there are and what kind of time frame I'm looking at.

12-06-2024

So I found Nebulous on a star chart and I will need to use a warp gate to get there. Not many go there as there is a rebellion going on. The HIVE sounds like your typical oppressive regime so I'll have an idea how things work and how to act and operate.

Rumor has it the HIVE have a communal mind, psychic abilities, and technology that compares with Cybertronian. Right up my alley.

I've been having odd headaches and getting glimpses of people's thoughts and feelings - even without my uniform and gear. I have manifested some abilities but at random and when under stress. I need to learn how to control these abilities and be able to manifest them at will. I believe I could learn this on Nebulous.

Why not go to Veritas and Soundwave? The HUB, Liege Maximo's troops, have invaded Cybertron and have a Titan. All Cybertronians are needed to fight this invasion becaus if Cybertron falls, Earth is next. Earth has no chance unless I find some advantage, or advantages, so I intend to keep learning as much as possible and sharing what I learn with others.

So, who has access to the warp gate? I'm sure Spike does as the Autobot Ambassador and maybe General Hawk since the Joes are helping the Nebulous Rebels. The problem is I haven't had good interactions with Spike and General Hawk is not going to let a Cobra, even one trying to break away, use the warp gate.

I'll try to find Spike while he's out and about doing holiday stuff and speak with him.

As for Russia and the Dire Wraiths, I haven't heard anything new from or about either. The same with my siblings and father. My father must be dead by now, I thought, but people have thought I died and I'm still here.