User blog:Sabels/Int 07-22-2018

"Scorpio

I Transform

'Put your ear down close to your soul and listen hard.' - Anne Sexton

Acknowledging desire and surrendering yourself to the depths will serve you best at this time"

From the Black Moon Astrology Cards Guidebook by Susan Sheppard

I spent yesterday going over the Sky Serpent data. I sent Command a request for a simulator for the Sky Serpent and hope they respond soon. I've decided to take the weekend off and take a more active role in the base. I put my name on the roster to handle the top VIPs that come through. I'm not going to schlep around just anybody. I haven't heard anything from Command since I spoke with the Crimson Twins, but I look forward to my next communication with my superiors. I need to expand my musical horizons and will do some research when it's slow at work and I have all the business taken care of. I bought company clothes and will wear those while on duty. I'm going to go to Kremwerk next weekend because I'm not looking for a serious relationship and in this day and age 'One Night Stands' and 'Hookups' are a thing. I am being careful because of all the diseases in this modern day.

Some people yearn for a return to simpler times. They haven't been through what I've been through. My Grampy was a just man, and I believe he had my best interests at heart when he was shaping me to become the man he wanted me to be. I find myself wondering what things would've been like had he lived until I had grown. I've done that a lot in my life and now I accept the fact that his death was what it was and I am who I am and, as humans are not static beings, I can improve.

As I write this in the early mornng hours, I lay in bed and realize that Native people the world over have Rites of Passage

My first successful defiance of my Father was mine.

I am ready to move past it.