User blog:Dexter Douglas/IC Journal Entry: Home?

January 5, 2014 - 2423 Hours

I have returned.

''Both to Active Duty and The Pit. In some ways, The Pit is home. In others, it is quite the opposite. Now that I have returned, I feel as though maybe I shouldn't have. Things are strained here. They always are when Shana is involved. There is a lot of history there. History that I would not change even if I had the means. History that, well, it has helped to make me who I am today.''

''Not a better solider. A better man.''

''Still, I can't keep avoiding her. She wants to talk, we'll talk. I can only hope that the talk doesn't end up the way I think it will.''

''Timber's coming, just in case. I know, I cheat.''

''Other than the obvious, I've been resettling in just fine. My students are coming along very nicely. Chance is improving. I will not take it easy on him the next time I spring a spar in his direction. In fact, he will not know when I am coming for him next time. Because he will be asleep.''

''I've been somewhat debriefed on the recent COBRA situation by Wild Bill, so I'm heading out to see if I can do a little recon. It'd be nice to get the drop on COBRA for a change. That'll also give me a chance to figure out what I'm going to say to Shana.''

You'd think my condition would make that easier.

It doesn't.

''Anyway. Sleep calls. I've got hunting to do tomorrow.''