User blog:Sabels/Int 08-10-2018

"It's not paranoia if they're really out to get you" Unknown

I realize the officer I served under in Cuba saw enemies everywhere because he was a small, weak, insecure man. So was the African warlord I served under. They were always worried about the wrong things and saw everyone as an enemy. That is a sad, lonely way to live.

Earlier today, major Bludd asked me to retrieve him and take him to Washington DC. We spoke and I'm thrilled that he's back. We both are trying to lighten out loads of all the emotional baggage we're carrying, and I know it's not a contest but he seems to have it together more than I do.

Mentally, now I'm on my time at Cobra. I see my time between fleeing Africa and joining Cobra as a good time in my life, despite still being not welcome in Russia due to the superior officer I disobeyed still being alive and more powerful than Serji. It was a good respite and allowed me to study Americans in greater detail. There's nothing like living amongst people to really learn the culture. It was America where I learned to appreciate my gifts and training, as well as being brought up in a first-world country because of watching how Sefu struggled with and was amazed by things I took for granted. As for Cobra, I believe that will be easy to get through and then I will be able to return to full duty.