User blog:Sydneygb/Major Bludd's Personal Journal: 15 July 2018

Hm. This is poignant:

Chapter 64:

Therefore the Master takes action

by letting things take their course.

He remains as calm

at the end as at the beginning.

He has nothing,

thus has nothing to lose.

I do have something to lose. A lot of things, really. Most notably Kimber and anybody else I truly care about. People who would be in danger if the powers that be (i.e. governments and individuals who want me dead or imprisoned) knew about their connection to me. That's my biggest Dragon, as Alexander would say. How can I let go of those people? One I left behind to protect her. One is the closest thing to a brother I have ever had. One is the light of my life, even when I'm not actually near her. People have told me my face lights up when I talk about her. One I left temporarily to better do my part to support us. When I returned, I couldn't find her. And one believed in me, more than I ever believed in myself.

If my enemies discovered any of their identities, they might be in grave danger. And that would be my fault. Because if I hadn't done the things that these enemies want to hurt me for, these people wouldn't be targetted. I don't know how to let go of them. I don't think that I should.